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Please let me see my babies. This is horrible.

After July, it looks like I came within 13 cents of finally earning $100 on my six year mission to receive a check from Google Adsense. They don’t send you any money until it’s at least $100 which is the beauty of their system because, I’m guessing, that most websites never reach the $100 threshold,…

Moving won’t help me. Making more money won’t help me. Love won’t help me. Hate won’t help me. Peace won’t help me. Confusion won’t help me. I’m not capable of having fun. So what to do? I’m sick of being your bitch. Life isn’t a gift, it’s a curse. Hell is life. Fuck off, God,…

DXM: Not. Am I happy about this lack of dxm in my life?  Not really. Nicotine: Not. Alcohol: Much more.  Daily use. Bummed bummed bummed. Fantasized about buying a shotgun today and killing myself in a Walmart parking lot.  No worries: If I’m considering the ideas of where then it’s a statement and not an…

All You Need Is Love by The Beatles Always Sounded Like a Communist Manifesto to Me It seems to say that you’re not special, but that’s okay, you only need to be you and do some loving. Q: There’s nothing you can do that can’t be done? A: You can do what others won’t. Q:…

What’s not to love?

The verdict in our system is always supposed to be about the evidence: proof beyond a shadow of a doubt. The verdict says nothing about the value of the life of the accused or the victim. Did OJ’s acquittal mean his white ex wife was a little less valuable to America than Simpson was?

Currently DXM and nicotine free. Depression? 5-HTP? Still taking it, but jury still out.

By Nuttakit (click here for source) I was looking through Google for an image of a woman sitting on a bench, like at a bus stop, at night, with a stylish street lamp nearby, but this picture of a couple sitting on a little bench caught my eye. I guess the bench isn’t necessarily little,…

Yes, I’m actually going to post this here.  No, it doesn’t help my situation. My fall-2004 diet of steak and beer and antidepressants really paid off when I made it to like 198 lbs… which I called 200. My monthly, 5-minute psychiatrist appointments at a brain-adjustment-facility documented both my growth in size and the failure…

Yellow Number Five-flavored Banana Drink Danielle Called Me! I mailed a letter to Danielle on Saturday and she called me this evening, the very next Monday. Reference: THE UNIVERSE IS BETWEEN YOUR EARS: Danielle, Duchess of Tulsa I haven’t seen Danielle since Spring of 2008 just before I moved to Texas.  At that time, I was…

Gigi De Leon in “Attempting Screed” – Andromeda, Season 5  This actress reminded me of Danielle. Yes, Danielle is a real person. She had long, red hair the last time I saw her. She’d had long, red hair every time I’d seen her over the decade before. Her hair was real.  I was told they…

Recapitulation of Red Wheel by Joe Winett(hack, yuck) I can see where the idea of producing more serotonin in the liver isn’t quite as cool as just keeping the brain from taking back up what’s already there. First day of 5-HTP experienced uncomfortable side effects of the digestive ilk. Tonight, my tummy did grumble once…

Have discontinued self medication with dxm to switch to self medication with 5-HTP. Otherwise, serotonin syndrome could cause much unhappy face.

You don’t have demons. 🙂 I Did.

Good morning, Roy… I woke up for a taste of water… Staying at my dad and step-mom’s in Jenks (USA)… Having graduated from Union, feels a little like being behind enemy lines… What time should I come calling this morning? Same address? Looking forward to seeing you! Thanks, Joe

I have so much in my head, sometimes I think the best way to live life is to spin it all around really fast and see what squirts out. I am not insane because I do not do the same thing expecting different results. 🙂 I think it would be insane to expect no results…

‘Nuff said about that float trip. The floor has been somewhat infested by fleas.  They need to die.

I’ve been living mostly on rice for the past few weeks because I didn’t work enough to buy much else to eat at home. I actually love rice. I also love vanilla.  There is a misconception that vanilla is plain when actually it’s one of the most complex flavorings we use in food. My favorite…

Was sure a week ago that everything was hopeless and was making moves to make it stay that way… and, the didn’t stay that way, so… looks like I have to continue on rebuilding a life again. My grandmother offered to pay for psychiatric treatment.  Everyone, including doctors, believe I have something called bipolar, so,…

Fricken fracken flippin flounder fudpucker ricken bocker mother piss bucket jazzy jam jam flippin reiterative fracken fricken flip-top safety seal burp the lid twice. Here’s how it goes: Every too often I stop doing anything in an attempt to frack up my life to some unrecoverable state at which point I’ll have no solution except…

Memorial Day, I guess, just has to be traumatic or dramatic or whatever. My employer needs work done and I just barely do enough to keep from being discarded, I think.  He needs stuff done, I’ve needed to work, but I don’t.. it’s sorta like writer’s block. Anyway, I’m presently locked into my room. Julie…

March 2013 I know since April 30th I’ve been a grouchy dickhead.  Luckily, every time around the wheel, things get a little better. Julie needs a floral career.   She has experience owning a shop.  Right now she’s waiting tables. I need a creative career of some sort.  I would prefer one that allows me…

I can’t change the past, but I can certainly be a resource for you in the future. This is a picture of my penny bank.  My Grandma Winett kept it for me at her house in Kansas City.  She had a special one for each grandchild. This bank is my gift to you this birthday.…

This is an email I received this morning from the place where I ordered those avocados for the Winett-Brungardt family for Christmas… Although my order was like 2 hours late, so they arrived after Christmas, but I never heard how they tasted.  I never heard anything. I can understand just moving on… with the kids……

At 12:30 this morning (last night) a switch in my head turned from negative to positive.  This is good. I need to do more writing. I’ve messed with putting ideas into videos. Oh! Today is Joshua’s birthday. The past is the past. Ok, yeh, I’m going to go ahead and write that I wish there…

Happy Birthday! I look forward to the day when we can celebrate your birthday together.  Until then: have fun, do good work… you know, Live Long and Prosper.

Arg. Sassa frassa fricken fracka fuppppppppppppp!!!! Arg. Fricken sassa fuppppppppppppp glub glub glub. Arg. ARGG!!!!! From June 2007 though April 2013, my Google Adsense account has accrued finalized earnings of about $95.  So, it looks like this is the year I might collect my first $100 from Google. But, that’s just trivia. The point of…

Bah Bah Bah Bah Bah Bah Bah Same thing, another year.

I worked a billable total of 2 hours this week.  I spent the rest of the time in my room wishing the world would stop making so many sounds.  Sounds trigger flits of anxiety in me when I’m playing hooky from work and the world. I repaired these black shorts with duct tape (don’t worry,…

As mothers day approaches, I feel I’m a highly skilled loser. I intended to write “I feel like I’m a highly skilled loser” but instead I accidentally labeled myself. I hated listening to mothers day radio commercials today. None of my time is mine. I haven’t earned it. Night time is the only peace. And…

Julie! #1 – Finish this blog posting before 8am so I will be at work before Scott goes to lunch.  This is a simple goal and the most difficult to achieve.  Not that Scott goes to lunch early.  I’m just ADD to the max, a lot. #2 – Make an appointment with Dr. Zimmerman to…

Dear Jordyn and Joshua, I miss you. Mucho Love, Joseph Michael Winett

My, how my life changed in twenty years. That rock is the rock that Daniel, 3, picked up in the road and was carrying, following me walking the dog, Cosmo.  His sister, Violet, 9, and brother, Darrin, 6, has already ran ahead to the house. And I looked back to check on Daniel. And I…

http://www.tulsaworld.com/article.aspx/Broadcaster_sets_record_during_annual_fund_raiser/040518_Ne_A11_Broad I got really wrapped up into talking on the radio.  I was planning to donate like $2500.  Then I got confused on how I was going to match others’ donations.  And then I thought I would just match them 3:1 up to the goal of $50,000.  And then I blurted out that I’d just…

In the ASCII table, 42 is an asterisk.  An asterisk is a wildcard.  It’s the answer to Life, the Universe, and Everything. I love numbers. Douglas Adams said the number just popped into his head.  That’s how God works.  He just pops into your head. Heh, I think I make money if you buy this…

Joe Winett Exactly how would they ruin the scouts?Are you willing to say publicly that being gay is a character flaw? 2 hours ago · Like Joe Winett From the Scout’s pages: (I was a scout) On my honor, I will do my best To do my duty to God and my country and to obey the Scout Law; To help…

Joe Winett · 6 followers 40 minutes ago ·  People are afraid that God will be ripped from them, but God doesn’t fear open discussion of any kind. GOD ALWAYS WINS WITH FREEDOM. It is the pushing of people into one train, one thought, and one mind that causes tyranny. And the written word never changes. That’s…

I just had the image that we’re all, right now, playing Quake.. We’re enjoying animal bodies. I’ve paid very close attention to my brain for a long time, and I’ve taken account of what faculties are managed by the brain (the meat) and me.  I believe a “person” is what is created when two different…

This Hawaiian Kona Coffee is easily the best coffee grown on Earth. Although rare, you’ve possibly tasted coffee blends called “Kona” that are 25% Kona, but what you’ve tasted doesn’t even compare to enjoying a cup, or pot, or six pots of the real thing. Kona is hard to find.   I found it was…

Imagine a woman so sweet that her ex-boyfriends are still her friends.   Frankly, she’s been more loyal and helpful to me, even when I was being a jerk, than either of my wives on paper.  She was woman enough to tell me to frack off when I needed to be told off, and then…

Yes.

“God” showed me… I started to write a post saying that I’ve been saying some crazy (wonderful) things to people… Oh, never mind. I always meet the people I’m supposed to meet.  And, sometimes, the places are empty… without guys.. COME ON!! GOD!  🙂  aghha 🙂 I need a vacation, but now a new place…

PLAUSIBLE DENIABILITY Nice ROCK! AND NOW I KNOW WHY MY PHONE WAS STOLEN AND WHY MY OWN COUSIN DISTRACTED ME FROM THAT FACT, PUTTING ME THROUGH THE SAME NONSENSE THAT ANYONE ELSE HAS TO GO THROUGH TO GET HIS STOLEN PHONE BACK.  🙂 I STILL HAVE THE AUDIO!!  🙂 Please stop using the DXM.  PLEASE…

So good to meet you. Thanks for the referral of the movie, The Way of the Gun You’re more special than you remember. Believe in whatever you want and you shall have it.

There’s a reason I don’t read this blog: It’s uncomfortable for me to today consider the ramifications of what I said yesterday and tomorrow I won’t like what I just wrote. However: Every time I’ve made the decision to change my thinking to be more in line with what you consider to be reality, the…

All due respect, Bixby Boys rule shit, not Tulsa. [THIS IS JUST A FRIENDLY RIBBING] Like ·  · Promote · Share Joe Winett They’re sweet because they’re in your house and that’s cool. I haven’t gone out of my way to be mean, I’m just drawn that way. 4 minutes ago · Like Joe Winett Slytherin, in case you’re wondering. Add up everything I…

I love bitches. You had such a strong, negative reaction to Stephanie… It was more than jealously, it was poison spewed from your hateful heart. Repent, repent, and play for God, but please don’t tip your hand. SPOILERS!! THIS IS A WARNING TO PEOPLE WHO KNOW THE ENDING FROM DOCTOR WHO. I DON’T KNOW THE…

Everything I do, surely, has a reason, and it would be impossible for me personally to know the reason. Lots of what I do, I don’t know why, but it’s always been for the best — struggling to make or keep friendships just blocks space for new ones, the rights ones, and only He knows…

Listen to your voices. Listen to your daemons. Your daemons are demons as everything is just the same. We are all One. I love you, I really do. My voices know things I cannot have known, but I did know.  I do know.  You will know. When we wake up from this dream, we all…

The choice was always yours, Dear Boy. You chose the Red Pill and I’m not disappointed that you did.  I knew you would.  I did, and I always will, as you did.  As others will.  As others have. We are all One. Enjoy the ride. ** NEEDLESS TO SAY, I SHALL NEVER WRITE THE BOOK…

Lie is about pouring everything out and putting it back in. The joy is in the pouring and the putting back, as much as the having or not. We cool? WE Are.

Joe Winett I want to see you, I think it’s clear we don’t end up together this time around. BUT, WE’RE ALL TOGETHER ANYWAY, RIGHT!?!?! I love you, as I love everyone, and me personally, I think I’ve learned to love myself again. Like ·  · Share · Promote · a few seconds ago ·  Joe Winett “…as I think I’ve learned to love…

I sincerely Apologize.  Everything has a reason, even the bad things, and the Bad One. Since everything is just One thing, to judge another is to judge Yourself. And we are hardest on Ourselves. Thank God! I know I can take it, but what about you? If I can take it, then You can, too.…

The good guys always win.  They always did, always will.  🙂  Grow a pair.

Beans and needs are the splenfo. Wow, I have magic hands. I have no idea what splenfo is. Wat. I’m ok.  🙂

Reposted from: 19 Sequentially Numbered Million Dollar Balls Handed Out at NightTrips OKC on Thu Mar 7, 13 Tonight’s project was to hand out nineteen (19) Million Dollar Ball dollars!They are Series 2009 from the Federal Reserve Bank in Dallas, Texas — numbered K82351374F through K82351392F.They’re all decorated (almost) the same. They’re numbered. They’re signed.On…

I had a vision about Bean in October that boiled down to being an indication that Bean was a distraction, a temptation to leave my mission.  I’ve had others.  I’ll have more.  I pledged myself to what I’m doing and it will not stop. One common thread between these people: (1) They can’t stand to…

I bet you think this song is about you.  But, it’s not. 🙂 I wrote a while back that the more someone is themselves, and acts like themselves, the more some people will love them and some people will dislike them.  It’s a fact of nature. The list of people who want nothing to do…

Joe Winett 3 hours ago near Shawnee Today, I told the story of how I would be thirsty on the bus, coming home from school. It was hot. And I would walk into the house. And I wouldn’t get a drink. And I would wait. And then I would fill up the glass with water. I would…

It’s been another one of these weeks I really like. Anyway, the love thing. Yes, it’s the elephant in the room. I do love you.  Ok.    Fine. You’re like so awesome.   My own sense of humor is based partially on you, and I always give you credit.  I’m very Open Source about material.…

The very issue, that I appear to have some skill, causes a vacuum that makes some people not want to have anything to do with me… If they’re living on a skill — which is work — the skill of facing, or lying, or playing, or fronting, spinning or webbing reality, whether they know they’re…

Another stellar day.. Watched kids, drank beer, closely lost two games of billiards, now finishing up with French toast. So lucky to be me.

(not the originally blogged image) Whatever  🙂 Look!!! I made Google pay good money  to save some of itself. “Something for <name>” doesn’t refer to looking for a gift.  I refers to looking for an image to put here. But any image could possibly have meaning. That one did not.

God exists. Nobody knows everything.

🙁

Now she’s moving into the Universe, drifting this way and that… Dear Samantha, Like was told to me recently, “Cheer up, Pumpkin!” (bean.) FRACK I wish I hadn’t brought the bean to mind again.  Six more weeks!!  Dang it.  It’s 3:45 in the A of M and that was not a smooth move there.  But…

I’m happy to announce that my brain had been extremely sharp and speedy lately and I have not been addled by depression in quite a number of days. Frankly, things have been going terrifically and I have a reasonable expectation that they will continue to improve.. As God is on my side and I’m no…

Going for green in 2013! I’m going to use the ordered list for this.  Get ready. Item number 1.  A. Use ordered list. (b) II I’ve been singing along with music onto video of me driving around central Oklahoma and then upload the noise (with moving pictures) to Facebook.  There is a point.  I had…

You’ve probably heard the saying, “We’ve already passed the Rubicon.”  It means passing the point of no return. Do you know where we got that saying? The Rubicon is a river in Italy. When Julius Caesar took his army past the line demarcated by the river, it was an act of insurrection against Rome…  Guess…

To: tw.shannon@okhouse.gov From: Joe Winett <joe@winett.com> Subject: Brand New Industry for Oklahoma, High Tech, Protected by Law Date: Tue, 5 Feb 2013 05:55:13 -0600 Dear Mr. Speaker!Congratulations on your election. :)I have an idea for a new industry that would:* Be the first of its kind in the world (to my knowledge)* Is high tech*…

Joe Winett Ummm, I will admit that not remembering the details usually doesn’t stop me from telling a story… no cop, no foul.. Or perhaps, not under oath, no foul. 32 minutes ago · Like Joe Winett I pride myself on always trying to be completely honest these days, but I was driving home earlier, telling a story to…

A demonstration of how I record my thoughts rather than trying to write them down. Advice about brainstorming from Joe Winett: “Try not to edit your thoughts as they pour from your brain. Writing or typing can be an idea killer as you’re trying to make the writing perfect or grammatkly… grammarly… grammarily.. whatever… correct.”…

Dear Adam, Since you are the only person I know who works at Google, I hope you’ll pass along this sentiment of appreciation for all Google does. I remind people that free is sometimes not completely free, just not immediately renumerated. However, the value proposition for Google services is, IMHO, a good one.  And I always…

I friend of mine who edits a collaborative blog ran into a problem recently. A number of people contribute to the blog posting.  All of the contributors were authorized as admins for the site instead of a mix of contributors managed by administrators.  A dispute arose between one of the authors and the rest, and…

Everything concerning time and memories mixes together in my brain… which some would call a problem, but it’s great for making stories even more tasty because of the extra cheese.  This isn’t exactly a secret bag from the hammers. I think some people (and I’m one of those people) hear a story and never consider…

Joe Winett Suddenly I’m rethinking using Flash for stuff… I hate to jump ship, because I love Flash/Actionscript, but the idea of authoring over and over once for PC and then for mobile/HTML5 bothers me. The question would be — how often do I really use features of Actionscript and Flash’s event model / layering…

Everyone likes to read a story. I’d like you to pay me to tell you a story. For decades (literally) I have been considering the best way to tell a story.  And make money from the telling of the story. I shiver when I think of writing a book.   I need to set up…

https://github.com/xaxxon/JoeDesktop No, that’s not my joeDesktop on github.

http://jasonsavard.com/ That’s right.  I made a donation to Jason Savard because I’m using his excellent Chrome extension, Checker Plus for Gmail… Given the choice between PayPal and Google Wallet, I decided to set up a Google Wallet account rather than type my debit card number into PayPal… because PAYPAL SUCKS.  I’m doing the best I…

In the course of our daily lives, we’ve been taught, and it’s great practice, to lean towards the most common denominator of behavior, which is usually right around or within local norms and customs. But, my dear babies, with regard to love interests, the best policy is to be yourself from the beginning.  The more…

In the past, I’ve written a summary of some years when they ended.  This time, I’m not going to do that. This year I’m working for MightyPages in Yukon, Oklahoma, and I still have responsibilities with National Cash Lenders near Charlotte, North Carolina, and I’m planning on launching Kids Elbow Room, a business I’ve been…

#1 — Please email with me.

I’m looking forward to the day I don’t remember why I posted this. I’m retiring the sad rose.

Remember the red and blue stuff? For some reason, the set designers for Star Trek: The Next Generation thought big containers of red and blue stuff made sense for the sick bay.

When I saw Barton Fink in 1991, I liked it, and I thought I understood the movie.  But, it’s easier to understand today. Sometimes things just get all balled up at the head office. Unrelated: I miss my babies. Thinking of better times, ahead or behind, makes things more difficult right now. Things aren’t terrible,…

When I was little, my favorite record was a 45 in my parents’ collection of the Beatles. It had I Want to Hold Your Hand on one side: And I Saw Her Standing There on the other: I Saw Her Standing There was my favorite of the two.  I definitely know the feeling, now. Paul…

One day, out of the blue,you asked me to wear this,hold that, and hang a microphone around my neck.You thought it was so funny.  🙂 I read my post from last year and it looks like I thought I was writing to a nine year old girl. Well, today you’re a woman! Try not to act like one…

In a dream I was skating around an ice rink, in a prison.  The rink was huge, and the ice was dark and translucent.  It was like skating around a dark lake.

Hope you’re having a nice day.

..and I’m up, after just a couple hours of sleep. I’m going to work on this video I was making for the song, Don’t Worry About the Government.  The copyright holder rejected it from YouTube last time around, but I uploaded it unfinished. [AN HOUR AND A HALF LATER] That’s enough for this morning!!  I…

Probably my favorite song. Talking Heads – This Must Be The Place (Naive Melody) I’m just an animal looking for a homeShare the same space for a minute or twoAnd you love me till my heart stopsLove me till i’m dead Thank You For Sending Me An Angel

My daughter made this for me for Valentine’s Day, 1999.  🙂  It’s a refrigerator magnet.  She turns 16 this month.